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This past Thanksgiving has been a life changing experience for me. Over the past few months, I have really lost my will to be happy. I’ve been negative, grouchy… just not my self. But I received the greatness gift on Thanksgiving. Like being struck by lightening, I suddenly remembered all that I am should be thankful for. I know that this might sound silly. But I guess I have never taken the time to really count all that I should be thankful for. There are so many wonderful things about my life. I have a
1. great family
2. a nice house, that requires little maintenance
3. good friends
4. a beautiful, smart, healthy, funny little girl
5. a loving and caring husband… who puts up with a lot of shit from me and still loves me. He is a great father. I couldn’t do all of this without him.
6. A good job with great benefits.
7. My health and the health of my family
8. I still have all 10 fingers and 10 toes…I know this might sound trivial, but it’s something to be thankful for non the less.
9. I live in a good, and safe neighborhood.
10. Although I would rather live on the east coast there are a lot of things to love about Colorado.
a. nice weather
b. low house prices
c. low taxes
d. skiing
11. A great sister who can teach me so much about life and pareting without saying a word… I wish I could be more like her.
12. even though I’ve put on a few pounds over the past couple on months, I’m still in relatively good shape.
The point of my list is that there are so many things to be happy about. If I concintrate my energy to think about what I have instead of what I don’t have…. I don’t have time to be sad or depressed. I need to remember to count every little blessing that comes my way. Live and love like everyday is your last.
Happiness begets happiness. The more happy thoughts you think, the more happiness you will feel. When you’re happy, happiness radiates to others around you.
Why did it take me so long to figure all of this out. AHHH… I’ll just be thankful I figured this out now instead of waiting until I was 80.
Life is good.
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AHHH!!! Men, what to do with them?
I had a really good conversation with R_ this weekend. He finally started to open up and listen to my feelings about moving back home. He was able to give me really good insight on why I was feeling so home sick too.
He thinks that the reason why I’m feeling so homesick right now is because my best-friend is in the process of planning here wedding, but I can be there to help out. Every time I hear about J_ shopping for dresses, or picking out flowers, it’s a bittersweet experience for me. I want her to find a lifetime of happiness, but I’m a little homesick because I want to be right by her side to help but I can’t. I think that he hit the nail right on the head! I’m so impressed… it’s so obvious but yet I couldn’t see it.
OK, that’s all good and fine. We figured out why I’m feeling more homesick than usually. But that doesn’t change the fact that I’ve wanted to move back east since the day I arrived in Denver 1,975 days ago. Since my husband is not interested in moving back east, this has caused tension in our marriage, even before we were married. Is it so wrong to want to be close to the place you were born? Am I childish to want to more back and be close to my mom and dad? Is it crazy that I want to live close to my best friend?
WELL!!! Listen to this… On Friday night R_ admitted that he has been actually researching where he would want to live and what we could be able to afford if we moved back east. I CAN”T BELIEVE IT!!!! Why didn’t he tell me this earlier??? It would have saved me so much heart break. YEAH!!! there is hope. Not only has he been doing research, he criticized me for not researching where I would want to live. But, I didn’t want to get my hopes up! But now I can!!! Isn’t he sooo cute?
He said that moving back east is not his preference, but that he would do it because it was my preference. He is my sole mate after all!
Although, we agreed that it was going to take lots of time and planning. He want to be in his current job for at least 3 years. Friday was his year and 1/2 anniversary. 550 days to go!!! There is a light at the end of the tunnel. I can begin planning for the move back home. I’m so happy!!! Mama, mama I’m coming home (even a big strong guy like ozzy gets homesick).
Can you believe it??? Although I really wanted to be home before J_ got married… but I understand that a big move is going to take some time. Instead J_’s wedding will mark the half way point from this day.
R_ is even considering asking his parents if we can build a house on the back of there lot (they have 5 acres). He has put a lot of thought into this. Why do men do that? They say no, but in the back of their minds they are making plans. Why do you have to me so confusing? He probably only said that because he knows that I’m keeping a blog now and wants me to write something cool about him.
So we were looking at the map and trying to decide where we could afford to live. It’s so expensive back east compared to Colorado! Rob wants to be close to a NYC train line. He has done extensive research into this!!! I’m so pround of him!!! Although I would rather live in PA, I’ll take NJ. What ever gets me back east and back to my peeps.
MY PEEPS!!!
J_ what do you think?
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