AHHH!!! Men, what to do with them?
I had a really good conversation with R_ this weekend. He finally started to open up and listen to my feelings about moving back home. He was able to give me really good insight on why I was feeling so home sick too.
He thinks that the reason why I’m feeling so homesick right now is because my best-friend is in the process of planning here wedding, but I can be there to help out. Every time I hear about J_ shopping for dresses, or picking out flowers, it’s a bittersweet experience for me. I want her to find a lifetime of happiness, but I’m a little homesick because I want to be right by her side to help but I can’t. I think that he hit the nail right on the head! I’m so impressed… it’s so obvious but yet I couldn’t see it.
OK, that’s all good and fine. We figured out why I’m feeling more homesick than usually. But that doesn’t change the fact that I’ve wanted to move back east since the day I arrived in Denver 1,975 days ago. Since my husband is not interested in moving back east, this has caused tension in our marriage, even before we were married. Is it so wrong to want to be close to the place you were born? Am I childish to want to more back and be close to my mom and dad? Is it crazy that I want to live close to my best friend?
WELL!!! Listen to this… On Friday night R_ admitted that he has been actually researching where he would want to live and what we could be able to afford if we moved back east. I CAN”T BELIEVE IT!!!! Why didn’t he tell me this earlier??? It would have saved me so much heart break. YEAH!!! there is hope. Not only has he been doing research, he criticized me for not researching where I would want to live. But, I didn’t want to get my hopes up! But now I can!!! Isn’t he sooo cute?
He said that moving back east is not his preference, but that he would do it because it was my preference. He is my sole mate after all!
Although, we agreed that it was going to take lots of time and planning. He want to be in his current job for at least 3 years. Friday was his year and 1/2 anniversary. 550 days to go!!! There is a light at the end of the tunnel. I can begin planning for the move back home. I’m so happy!!! Mama, mama I’m coming home (even a big strong guy like ozzy gets homesick).
Can you believe it??? Although I really wanted to be home before J_ got married… but I understand that a big move is going to take some time. Instead J_’s wedding will mark the half way point from this day.
R_ is even considering asking his parents if we can build a house on the back of there lot (they have 5 acres). He has put a lot of thought into this. Why do men do that? They say no, but in the back of their minds they are making plans. Why do you have to me so confusing? He probably only said that because he knows that I’m keeping a blog now and wants me to write something cool about him.
So we were looking at the map and trying to decide where we could afford to live. It’s so expensive back east compared to Colorado! Rob wants to be close to a NYC train line. He has done extensive research into this!!! I’m so pround of him!!! Although I would rather live in PA, I’ll take NJ. What ever gets me back east and back to my peeps.
MY PEEPS!!!
J_ what do you think?
PEEPS! Yeah girl! Thats the way to do it!
You see! Men actually do listen! They do! They do! And here I am in the process of writing my long list of crap … why men have this strange desire to want to push a woman’s esteem down. Ewww. wrong Jax. Wrong!
Hey, there is nothing wrong with moving back home. I miss you K. I miss you so much! So, I think you have the chance! The time is approaching, there is light at the end of the tunnel! There is! Two friends torn by land, not anymore. Not!
I can start knocking out babies and we can have our children grow up together! A short drive to the city and visit Jaime and Lauren! FYI - Lauren is on her way… the baby making process has begun for them.
I love you K! Love you like no tomorrow!